I hate this shit

How is it that I can sleep, uninterrupted, for 12 hours and still feel like shit when I wake up? I don't like to think of myself as lazy, but fuck, why am I exhausted after sleeping for half a day? Of course, this just feeds into my lack of self-respect and esteem; only shiftless, lazy morons can't get a good night's sleep.

Yes, this is how my mind works. It's fun being damaged.

Also, there's something I want to address that's been bugging me for a week or so now. I've been told at various times that I have a rather misogynistic outlook; I make demeaning comments about women, sex, consent, etc.. It bothers me, as I don't believe myself to be one - most of my friends are female, and I generally think I treat them with as much respect as I do men - and I'm not intending to *be* demeaning, but I slip into it rather frequently, often without even noticing.

For example, on this blog I recently made the comment that girls who dress seductively and post pictures of it on their online dating profiles are asking to be objectified; I believe the exact term was "you come off as an all-you-can-eat buffet." It didn't even occur to me that this was anything beyond sound advice until I was taken to task by my sister-in-law's sister. Mind you, she was absolutely right to do so; I'm far from perfect and welcome the rebuke when it's warranted.

All I can do is attempt to be more sensitive about demeaning and degrading comments and realize that, as a man in a largely patriarchal society, I have to be more conscious about the damage that I can do with my words. You don't have to be a rapist to be a misogynistic ass, I guess.